Goodbye, My Girl

I had one year to prepare for this day but when it arrived unexpectedly, the bereavement was excruciating.   She was the bravest rabbit I came to know.   She was my therapeutic companion and more.   I miss her passionate boinking sounds, the way she ran and sat on her newspaper, looked at me with her round captivating eyes when I opened the fridge, how she tryed to get up every morning to greet me but no longer able to.  I tryed to make sure when the day comes, there will be no "what if" guilt feelings but the emotional preparation didn't work.   When she couldn't eat and was weakly licking me the night before, I wish I picked up the cue that she was saying goodbye.   I asked, "Don't go. Please don't leave me" but she was cold, stiff and not responsive....
I have been looking at the empty floor that she used to lie, her photos over and over every night, I miss my girl so much.
To my sweet gentle girl, thank you and I am sorry.